it can never be the same again i know
i can never trust another person as much as i did before
but all the memories just keep coming back now and then
and sometimes i wonder if i did e right thing
from the day that u said those to me
i know i will take quite some time for me to have complete trust in it again
but now i realised that i need a much longer time for me to recover from it
and i know i can never really forget it all
because it left me with too deep a cut
for me to really trust another person that much again
with all my heart i did not want to admit
but i really miss those times we have had

tell me
what is e meaning of forever?

no one really knows what i am really thinkin inside me
not even a real single person
i want to keep all this to myself
but i found i cannot handle it well
so i wrote all this here
to 'vent' it all out
and i hope that the empty feeling inside me will go away

^this is on friendship-


i wanna do my best in e final yr examz.. i realli wan to.. but i found dat my emathz was juz too cham.. cuz i dun even noe hw to do my hmk.. if tiz go on.. i noe i wil fail.. im goin to find sumone to tch mi.. n try to improve on it.. =) im nt goin to slack.. try nt to..
my bdae gt exam.. suay..

stupid dae it is 2dae. quarrelled wif dat idiot sis of mine. AGAIN. oso forgt wad we quarrel le budden aft dat mummy scolded her sae she veri rude den hit her n she tok back. den she sae i oso lidat tok de n dat mummy nv hit mi. den mummy cum into e rm sae mi lorz.. den e idiot sae she nv hit mi den i put out hand let mummy hit for her c c lorz.. siao de.. lidat oso wan c.. hahaz.. budden mummy nv hit hard lahz.. hit to show dat idiot onli.. kkz.. enuff of tiz quarrellin ting le..
2dae so qiao worz.. hahaz.. i online he jiu offline.. hahaz.. no yuan fen sia.. =P den done 3 tcherz dae cardz 2dae.. used up all my creativity 4 2dae le.. hahaz.. do 3 finish le my head horz.. pain pain liaoz.. =P 2dae in e mornin de tym cold cold de worz.. long tym no lidat le.. waitin 4 e wkend 2 cum.. hahaz.. =P

quite a few daez nv blog le bahz.. cuz gt hmk n all dat.. den stil muz make 10 tcherz dae cardz in total.. until nw onli made 2 onli.. pathetic.. dunno y i make so slow de.. hahaz.. den 2dae fri worz.. budden no tritouch.. cuz pertapis de ppl dere bzy bahz i tink.. quite happie bout it bahz.. cuz can sae lyk everi fri oso go pertapis de.. den 2dae actually can go out play worz.. hahaz.. =D at first wif clau den aft dat wif him lorz.. im bein missed by so many ppl.. =P hahaz.. honoured worz.. budden recently gt sum prob.. dunno exactly wad to do bout it.. dun wanna tink bout it..
den horz.. i go play e amazin race worz.. oso dunno exactly wad it was.. gt tcher pei de ma?? izit play wif other sch de huh?? if is horz.. den sure lose de lorz.. hahaz.. cuz mi is join for e fun dat i wil hv.. =P hehez.. c my face wil win mehz?? =P

e song sooo nice!! hu noez e lyrics for nv b replaced?? 2dae gt e social studies de nrichment in e mornin.. waste my precious tym which i can spend it on slpin lehz.. budden nvm.. e tcher gt gv us sweetz.. hehez.. =P budden horz.. mi 2dae go for e dental checkup worz.. for bout 5 mins lidat.. den e dentist help mi clean teeth.. den gt e sand sand ting de.. pa pa at first..

juz change e song of tiz bloggy.. [[-nv b replaced-]] nice song.. =) 2dae did practical durin phy klass.. okok lahz.. nt veri fun.. =P hehez.. went out do my hmk b4 goin home 2dae.. wif him lorz.. actually stil gt clau de.. budden aft dat she sae she zhi jie hui jia.. den dun nid mi pei her.. hmk sumwad completed le.. budden stil gt bk trails n e tcherz dae cards to make.. =) tcherz dae cumin le.. plannin to go back rvps.. miss e tcherz.. especially ms siti.. n all my pri sch matez.. e tymz we've been 2gather.. especially durin hockey.. dey cld nt b forgtten.. regret dat i nv go for e graduation party laz tym.. but too late le.. try to make e best outta tiz bahz.. =) did anione else wan go back rvps de ma?? hmmm..

hahaz.. i juz lyk e song 'reach out for e skiez'.. e mor i hear e nicer it bcum.. hahaz.. dunno y.. 2dae go kazin hse bai bai ah gong ah ma.. den shun bian watch ge dou tian wang.. nice show~!! =D hahaz.. recommended to everione~ =D so so so nice~ hahaz.. feelin a lil slpy.. slp early 2nite le bahz.. tmr sch dae agn le.. muz study study study.. test test test.. hahaz.. sian worz..

hmmm.. izit true dat gtin sick can help u grow taller?? if can i wun mind gtin sick once in awile.. hahaz.. nw liying taller den mi le bahz.. she dou grow taller le.. wen wil b my turn to grow taller nerz?? hehez.. its nt dat i hate my height.. its juz dat.. m i realli canot grow tall le?? cuz i for e past yr i one yr onli grow 1cm onli lehz.. den nw goin to b e shortest in klass le.. so cham.. hahaz.. budden i wil nu li grow tall de.. =) hehez.. nowadaez gt so many hmk n tests.. i tink i failed my chem le.. phy oso confirm fail liaoz.. 2/10 lehz.. hahaz.. budden horz.. yong sae if test fail.. muz go for retest.. den if retest fail.. muz go yum cha wif him liaoz.. hahaz.. budden sum sub r juz veri hard to pass lorz.. humans for eg.. i dun tink i passed humans b4.. hahaz.. suay lorz.. muz go for tests n retests.. worse ting is dat retest is harder den test arhz.. amathz is lidat de.. dunno if other sub is lidat de ma.. den tmr muz go kazin hse bai bai.. bai ah gong ah ma.. cuz e 7th mth mahz.. den compulsory muz go.. budden bai finish liaoz oso nth do le.. dere veri sian..
nw stil gt hmk haven do finish.. gt emathz n phy wb to do.. phy so hard.. dunno wad e qns tokin bout..
den nerz.. actually daddy wan force mi go learn akido de.. budden mi argue back sae if he wan waste money on akido which i hv no intrest in i rather he use e money to gimmi amathz tuition betta.. budden mi haven find e tuition yet.. den he stil wan mi go learn akido.. so cham.. akido fun mehz.. at nite de summor.. my mei kena force go learn.. 2nite first lesson.. daddy ask mi pei her go.. sengkang cc mahz.. den he ask mi go c c.. mayb go join.. tolong tolong lahz.. mi?? akido?? omg.. den e uniform or wadeva is so omg.. lookz sooo hot n thick.. den e bottom or wadeva lookz so much lyk our sch uniform de culottes.. hahaz.. so weird de.. =P
tmr dey sae gt one mor set of fireworkz worz.. wanna watch.. hope daddy bring us to marina aft bai bai.. hahaz.. althou national dae alredy passed le.. budden stil wanna c lehz.. hahaz.. =P shld b quite nice de bahz.. =)

` missin__*

yea~!! tmr hvin fun le~!! hahaz.. =D cuz tmr is celebratin national dae.. den onli half sch dae onli.. so aft dat goin play~!! hahaz.. =D goin to watch movie bahz.. den mi bringin digi cam along oso.. cuz muz take pics of e vistarianz de ting.. so fun~ =D hahaz.. lookin forward~

so sian nw.. gt el hmk to do.. budden nv copy dn e qn.. den feel lyk stayin home oso.. haven wash shoez oso.. lazy wash lehz.. den so less ppl online.. all of dem leave mi to die of boredom.. hahaz.. budden dun wanna b dead so soon lahz.. stil haven play finish.. hahaz.. =P frenster oso nth to do le.. everitym e same old ting.. dyin of boredom...

2dae art club early dizmiz.. onli go for bout 20 mins jiu dizmiz le.. hahaz.. den joseph ng sae tiz sat gt istana de 'on e spot' art competition.. can choose go or nt go.. budden mi wil go de lahz.. cuz gt cca pt mahz.. juz participate jiu gt le.. dun nida win prize or anith.. =) hehez.. can wear home clothes oso worz.. hahaz.. =D budden muz wake up early lehz.. 7.30 jiu muz reach dohby gauht liaoz.. den 1.30 lidat den dizmiz.. hahaz.. budden aft dat is our own free tym le worz~!! =D hahaz.. can play~ =) den joseph ng stil sae nx mon nida bring digi cam to sch.. national dae celebration worz.. half dae de oso~ hahaz.. he sae we muz b lyk 'gou zai dui'.. take picz of e vistarianz wifout dem noein.. hahaz.. den mayb sum of e picz taken wil b sent for competition oso.. budden mi wun b so gd to take onli vistarianz onli.. wil play wif e cam n take picz wif all my gd gd de frenz~ =D hahaz.. so sian nw.. gt emathz hmk..

hey.. im back agn~ =) hahaz.. anibody missed mi?? =P hahaz.. lucky gt sumone helpin mi on tiz blog worz.. if nt i wun b here animor le.. cuz i dunno hw to play wif tiz blog tingy.. =P hehez.. so... tank u anton~ =) hahaz.. so honoured worz him.. gt his name on my blog.. =P