feeling so not good. just found out that healthwise was'nt the one we thought it would be. kenny lied to us. he said that only healthwise is the one of the few that have contact with nano tech. but. things are not like that. found out that even giordano used nano tech in manufacturing their products. even wq mummy's company's cosmetic products also used that. the feeling is really not good at all. but then thinking, maybe alex and terry also don't know that. so couldn't blame them. but, still, the disappointment is there. i don't know why i felt like that. maybe my hopes are too high. maybe i trusted alex n terry with the whole of my heart. i don't know why. i still trust them. they wouldn't harm me, they wouldn't lie to me. i continued to believe what i always believe in. =)

friendship.

and another one. i hate daniel. thou i don't know him and shili, but after reading shili's blog, i really hate him. hate him for letting a girl feel like this. hate him for making a girl this miserable. to be honest, actually i don't quite like her, but after reading her blog, i found out that she's a nice girl all in all. i stand up for her.

suddenly, things are not going right. don't know why. but i'm not happy. even though i know wq's back with alot of presents, with mickeys. i'm supposed to be happy. but i'm not. at least for now i'm not.

i'm sad. i need animal therapy. i want to go m&m. =(




i'm not happy.




i've created trouble for myself. i should'nt have chatted with him in the first place and raised his hopes up high. i can only say i deserved it. but what am i going to do. i can't turn back the time. i can't just ignore him like that. that will be too irresponsible of me. i don't like it. keep delaying the time to meet isn't a good way of doing things. but i really don't wish. i don't know him well and glen is not going. it will be so uncomfortable and not me if i really do go. but how am i going to tell. its going to hurt. its going to be painful. i.. i don't know how to. i thought he had it all over with. but. should not have done that. i don't know a few chats to him were called close friends. i really don't know. oh god pls forgive me. i should not have ignored his words in the first place.

filled with regrets. what am i to do?