bad percy! she knew about dan de thing long ago and she didnt tell me!! baddieeee. but she says that if i avoid him jiu can le. =DDD hahas. nice piece of advice! liying is the BEST after all!! =DD

and. im so tired today. maybe its cause i slept only THREE hours yesterday. i just feel so so so tiredd.. and today's project comm meeting didnt do much lahhs. same old things. =))

im still considering whether to go for the grad night anot. clariss is not going. and if meiqi go, she'll be with junwei arhs. so.. dont know lahhs.

dan,
u asked me how would u feel,
if i treated you like that,
if i ignored you,
if i asked you to please dont like that.

but how would i feel,
im totally lethargic,
and here you are,
saying all these things,
please, stop,
i meant it,

i know there wont be a good ending,
so why must you wait,
and even if you really do,
why must you tell me,
i dont want to know all these,
please stop all these..

im going to block you if you continue, im serious.
im sorry, but its true..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

STOP pls!!!!!!!!!

and i mean STOP!!! so stressed lahs!

i've been sleeping badly these days and rushing on projects. and now at ONE time, TWO bees are chatting with me in my msn, meaning TWO windows. im already so tired, i cant even think straight now! and u tell me all these?! im going crazy soon i tell u!

okay. bee is too bad a word to describe them. and i dont think i'll be telling borong about my change in blog webby. cause im talking about him here. but seriously. im REALLY tired. i've no more energy to think about all these.

i'll copy some of our conversation in here, just so u know the seriousness of borong's situation.
take note of borong's display nick.


((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of yt...........In my heart u were the only and my memory being with yt lives on says: i think icannot put yt x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahsa ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of yt...........In my heart u were the only and my memory being with yt lives on says: i noe another girl call yt 2 x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: okayys ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of yt...........In my heart u were the only and my memory being with yt lives on says: after she think i like her die liao x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: LOL x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: nvm lahhs x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahas x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: she'll feel.... x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: loved?? x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahas ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of u.............In my heart u were the only and my memory being with u lives on says: ......................no feeling for her x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahas x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hmmm?? x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: then u got feeling for me mehs? ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of u.............In my heart u were the only and my memory being with u lives on says:
ya ya

now let u see borong's personal nick.

I would give my life away if i can be with u cause I can't still the voice inside of me that is calling out your name

he's been like that since so long ago. and now then i know he's for real. i've always thought that he's joking and have always been playing along with him. borong, im really sorry to put this on blog, but i dont want to write it in my diary. and i have to get this out of my brain before i go crazy soon, REAL SOON.

and another one is DAN. one which i really did not expected. i've closed the window but i'll write about it briefly, depending on how much i remembered.

he asked if he can ask me a question. and he's been wanting to ask that question for very long. cause he asked me the last 2 times[if im not wrong] when im online. only he didnt asked in the end, and pushed it till now. he asked if he can take care of me. im totally blurred in the beginning. then i 'oh'. and got it. and to be honest, im not close with dan, AT ALL. i mean, we're friends lahs, just normal friends. and he popped THAT question?! so sudden?! and i dont even think that he know me very well lors. i keep asking him 'dont like that lahhhhs'. and i told him that i got alot of things on my mind. dont keep like that. if not im going crazy soon. and dan sweared that he'll wait. though i called him NOT TO. and i said it in this way, 'DONT WANT!!!' when he said that he'll wait. he sweared. dont know why but im going crazy! why they like that!!

i dont know why. i just feel so STRESSED UP.

went to mutts&mittens today!!! finally!!!! =DDDDDDD
let u see some pics taken. hahas. shall upload more next time! =DD



winx! sleeping so sweetly.. =)) she's too tired out..



cherish!! =))) the sleeping child.. sweeett little girl she is too!



cherish again! =D such a niceee little friend!! love her to bitts!! =DD



the pugg with weiqi and me! cute little puggy she is!! =))) so round!



the pugg following winx! =)) i named this photo, follow ME. =DD



the pugg and me! where's she looking at? =D



ritz with weiqi and me! =DD



ritz and me! =D



weiqi and me! =DD

had a nice time enjoying the loveely photos?
shall upload more next time! =DDD

BUT. today is not wei xian's day. =(( she fell and broke into a fish tank while climbing up to get a bag. a stupid reason to get into hospital hors. haiiis. but seriously, she bled alot. =(( at such a young age, only primary 6! and is going to have so many scars! but she never cry! wei xian is the bravest person i've ever known! wei xian bu yao pa! bu hui you shi de! =) when i saw the doctor cleansing her wound i felt like crying already, and she managed to tolerate it and never cried. but she's afraid and dont want surgery and stitches. now i dont know the result of her x ray yet. shall update on that when i know. wei xian!! jia you!! =)))

suddenly, im missing mutts&mittens so much! maybe its cause i browsed through the pictures in my com, and saw all the photos we've taken..

betsy! ah girl! oreo! hunter! -the HYPER gang.
lala! angry doggies! ritz! -the SWEET ones.
fleecy! fluffy! -the KISSABLES.

and LOADS more!!

here are some of the memorable times we had there..
take a long and enjoyable look.. =))







































































nicee? its like. so long ago le! and i miss it sooo muchh!!! preferably can go back before 10th of june, before i go there with my CIP group. =))) i miss it soooo badly!!

back from chalet!! =DDDDDD 3 days 2 nights passes sooo fast!! and the summary of what we did are just basically going out to eat, BBQ, playing mahjong, eLearning/eGaming, sleeping, and the BEST thing is going gai gai in yiyang's car!! =DD only 5 of us went. yiyang, meiqi, junwei, darren and me! =DD we just went 7-11, bought drinks, and drove to pasir ris park to walk around! =DD yiyang's driving not bad de wors. i just LOVEE sitting in other ppl's cars!!! =DD EXCEPT for cabs. and the chalet is SUPER EXPENSIVE!! 23 bucks for lodging ALONE! and 12 bucks for BBQ! expensive right?! next time CANNOT let huangjun organise le! must ask yiyang for advise when organising the next chalet! =DDD which is, during SEM BREAK! =DDD in august! hahas.

ohohoh. and we had a nutritious and sumptuous breakfast on our third day! FRUIT SALAD!! =DD and fruit juice!! =DD but we bought too much le, and some was wasted. =((

and i got a bed for my lapp to rest in!! =DD costs me around 20 bucks. =)) but its worth it. my week's allowance is gone too! left 6 bucks only! how am i going to pay for kbox tomorrow?! hahas. borrow from hanhan!! =DDD but dont know if she have 20 bucks like that anot lehs.

=DD okays for now. time for me to fill my my dear stomach!

just now jianliang asked me to write comments for him, and i ACTUALLY very willing to write de. BUT, mood immediately went down [not as in sad, but just a feeling of detest] when i saw THAT name. and yes, im not afraid of saying it out here.

I DON'T LIKE CELIA AW FROM CADC, ASSISSTANT-COMM HEAD FOR DABATE.

dont ask me why. i just dont like her ALOT.
she actually dont come to club often after the F.O. camp,
but just when its about the time when the seniors are choosing year ones to be assisstant comm heads,
she SUDDENLY frequent the club.

in my opinion,
she SUCKS UP to the seniors,
she wants to GET CLOSE to the seniors,
she goes for RANKS and AUTHORITY.

so in CONCLUSION,
she WANTS to be of RANK in the first place.

i hereby affirmed AGAIN that the information above are just MY opinions.

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its HER honour that HER name is up on MY blog. and i feel my blog is POLLUTED by that disgusting name of HERS. so UNCLEAN. EWWWW.

and i know that junwei and yiyang is going to naggg me if they sees this post.

so, =)) i say first,
this is ME,
take it or leave it,
you can always go to other websites if you're sighing after reading my post ya? =))

this is just a place for me to express myself.
less then 10 people knows my blog afterall.
its sort of private.
especially when it comes to cadc.
only junwei, yiyang, jianliang, percy[ithinksheknows], chaurcherng[iguessedhe'dforgotten], and nobody else.
so its safe.
and even if SHE did sees this,
i'll just admit.
its the truth anyway.

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and im in NEED of money!! im asking bo rong to help me see if can go customer service work anot, in NTUC. cause its FUN!!! =DDDDD and somemore i need cash!

last but not least,
FIRA CHALET; COUNT DOWN; ONE DAY!!! =DDDDDD

FIRA ROCKS!!! we'll be FIRA, FOREVER!

sorry for not posting regularly nowadays. =))

it's been tiring these days, with stuffs like so super alot of tutorials and the golf project going on. well. the golf project has been carried out at too slow a speed. finding the sponsors are HARD work! we called about 70 plus companies and only got 31 emails to send our proposals to!! thats like, so little! NEVER underestimate the work of telemarketing! its tiring to sit in a chair for HOURS repeating the greeting and asking the same questions over and over again. worse is if the phone is unanswered and u have to call them up another time. but as today is my first time doing telemarketing, i had some fun! =D and aloysius said that we have to get used to doing the work of telemarketing, as we're going to have to do it often from now on. so i guess it's better to like it than detesting it?? =))

oh. and i have something to say,

MARKET-EERS JIA YOU! =DD WE CAN DO IT!! I BELIEVE THAT WE CAN GET SOME REAL GOOD SPONSORS IF WE KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!! =DD

lets call hard together on mon again! =DD and send out the targeted FIFTY emails! and bounced-back mails are not counted. =))

im not sure if its a good or bad thing, but aloysius had appointed me to compile all the work that the marketing group has done. its a big responsibility to take on, to be consistent in my work, and im not sure if i can do it well..

good news is, FIRA IS HAVING A CHALET!!! =DDD it will be held during mon to weds of the e-learning week! =DD and we'll be doing our blackboard studying and quizes together! =DD I SIMPLY LOVEEE FIRA TO BITS!! however bad news is that im going broke and am saving up for ALOT of things! there's percy and yiyang's birthday coming up, grad night for he yi's batch, platforms for grad night, sub-com camp, anton's birthday, and somemore holidays is coming!! sure spend ALOT one. so must earn money now! =))

we have so muchhh tutorials recently!!! and one important thing, i dont like ADOBE!! hahas. cause so super hard, must ask for help from skye/junkai/janet/evelyn/jinfang/shumin! so many people helped me! can see how hard it is le bahs. sad for me. hahas. =DD

this is north vista composed de song, its nice. though you cant hear it here, just reading the lyrics will be good enough..

Iris Theme

All around me they are fading,
Disappearing from the sky,
Don't you feel the pain,
All the colours drain,
Why oh why~

Red has lost its usual charm,
Orange is no longer calm,
Yellow lost its shine,
Green is all but fine,
Blue next in line,

So tell me,
Is it really meant to be this way,
Nothing left for me but hurt and pain,
Colour slips away,
All is white and gray,

Hear my plea,
Come to me,

You alone you hold the key,
To my heart you find the sympathy,
To,
Help to make it right,
Make the colours bright again.


nice?
its very touching.
and dont worry. =) im not sad, just reminising the good old times.

now for updates. =)
got myself into trouble by saying one word: 'underaged'.
cause im involved in a project under the module of event experience, for which we have to organise a golf challenge for SPGG [singapore polytechnic graduates' guild]. and i've been appointed by Aloysius [overall-coordinator for the project] to be the Marketing manager. just one word and i got myself in deep. then he asked me to get 3 of my best friends to join me. so i got janet and jinfang, and the third one i took fanessa. =))) and after that amber joined us, really a BIG thank you to her! cause we lack of manpower sia. =DD

so now, the marketing gang have to find 25 possible/potential sponsors for the golf challenge each. which means, we need to get 125 company names by Monday as we'll be meeting Aloysius at 1030 then. also, we need to get the contact list of the members from Aloysius in order to contact them and confirm who and how many people will be going. 'save the date' postcards shall be designed and sent too, to remind them of the date, time and venue of the event. selection of goodies [for goodie bag] shall be done by us too! and the contacting of sponsors and VIPs. and the list goes on and on.. it'll be time-consuming. i hope that i wont be too outdated on FIRA events, hope that will still be going to the club frequently.

and tomorrow FIRA will be going out for dinner!! =DD buffet at SAKAE! though i think i wont eat much, but how can i miss it?? =D 20 bucks should be enough. cause im seriously broke. and yes. i finally got my ezylink! =DD it UGLY though. but nevermind, im gonna get concession! =DDD

mummy's birthday!! =DD we ate kfc and bought a chocolate cake home! =D other mummys on their birthdays is eat nice nice meals and go shopping till pengs de hors, but my mummy is sooo different! she bought ALOT of vcds!! hahas. =DD happie 43th birthday to her!! =DD my dear dear mummy!! LOVE her loads!! =DD

actually there're some more things that i would like to say. but, this IS a blog afterall. so i shall put my secrets into my dear diary! =))

something to sum up for today, its been a tiring day. things have been on my mind, killing so much of my brain cells and bursting the blood vessels in my heart.

here to fulfill putting JUN WEI's name in my blog. hmms. i scratched him! oops. thats like so long ago lahs. still remember arhs u? hahas. =PP really is FORGET to cut nails mahs. not on purpose de lahs. so XIAO QI de!

now for updating of yesterday's events. actually supposed to meet 5 at city hall. then arranged to meet chaurcherng at 4. he late for one hour nevermind, but when he reach he told me that he dont want to help mi do anymore! pissed me off sia. so guo fen lors.

bought candies yesterday! =DD

watched angela chang's campus concert today!! =DD her voice is SO POWERFUL! so nice!! but she today not very pretty wors. =) it only lasted for 1 hour.

lets talk about the outing yesterday! =)) we're supposed to meet up with chaur cherng at vivo at 530pm but we're late. =P sorry its my fault! but luckily in the end chaur cherng is later then us!
hahas. well, we're late cause meiqi, percy, dom and huang jun accompany me to clementi to get me a new footwear for my poor foot. cause they're practically going to have blisters soon if it continues. its because i had a meeting with the client yesterday, which is the spgg person. and i wore formal, or so i assumed. and as i dont wish to wear track shoes, i wore my mummy's boots. which, i found out in school, was seriously too small for me! i even suspected that it shrinked! hahas. so im desperately wanting and needing to get my foot a saviour. =D

met up with paul at outram mrt station and went vivo together. well, as usual, chaur cherng was late. and we went to candy empire to walk around! =D they bought some chocolates and finally he reached. hahas. we went for our dinner at the hong kong's gary kim restaurant and its ex! hahas. its about 15 per person but its worth it lahs. the baked rice with cheese is nice! or rather, i simply lovee cheese! =DD when we got there and take a look at the menu, the queue started to form and we decided to go in. =DD hahas. lucky us!

jianliang got half a dozen of donuts from the DonutFactory for me! =)) ALL is DOUBLECHOC! THANK YOU JIANLIANG! =DD so honoured!

oh. and the mrt at harbourfront mrt station spoil just when we're on the way down! so dom, percy and me took a cab home. and chung heng walk home?? or bus?? not sure. hahas. but i reached home first. its about 1115pm when i reach my doorstep. btw, i was so tired ytd that ppl kept asking me why am i so sad? hahas. dont worry. i wont get sad over nothing one. its just that im REAL tired. =)) but when meiqi mentioned going to the pets safari, i perked up. hahas. and when im IN pets safari, im energised. =DDD hahas. saw 2 FEI SI REN [super fat] rabbits! =DD hahas. but the sheltie is sold. =( and there're 2 new golden retrievers.

just read finished weiqi's blog.
im sad.
im missing M&M!!!!!
im depressed.
haven gone back for like half a year.
i miss everyone there.
i want to play with them.
know other doggies better.
i hope the dogs miss us as much as we miss them.
but.
i know they wont.
they have so many people visiting them everyday.
they wont remember us one.
to them we're just passersby in their life.
=(((((
i want to go back to m&m.
but im afraid of disappointing cohen.
i dont have face to go back to m&m.
but i miss m&m so much!
im missing it badly.
and i know that weiqi is too.
i miss the angry doggies, i miss bandit, i miss hunter, i miss betsy, i miss lala, i miss ritz, i miss george, i miss the family, i miss fleecy and fluffy, i miss ah boon, i miss cohen, i miss the pool, i miss running into the catery whenever it rains, i miss the shop, i miss the air-conditioned room, i miss being in a kernel, i miss going into the runing area, i miss walking the dogs, i miss chasing after them when they run out of the kernel, i miss them lying on my lap, i miss them jumping around, i miss them standing up as tall as mi, i miss so much so much of m&m...

tell mi that im going back someday..

sometimes im thinking, i hope that nobody adopts the doggies there.
so that i can have them all to myself.
but i know that im being selfish.
the doggies are there so that they can have a chance to live a normal dog life.
and here i am wishing that they wont get adopted, at least the closer ones to me wont.
but we get really sad when we knew that betsy is adopted last time. and now. we dont get a chance to see her. the lively hoppy betsy is no longer ours to dote on, no longer ours to play with, no longer we get to see her. losing betsy is such a big piece of puzzle piece gone lost whenever we get into the kernel of the 3 buddies, which now, left with none. oreo is gone too. but she's still seenable as she's adopted by one of the staffs there. the other one i dont see her anymore. guess adopted too. thats the way with m&m. come and go. i wonder how the staffs there learn to cope and get on with life when doggies leave and another come. u can get really close to the doggies u know. a bond created, a friendship started.

so long never blog le. =)) sorry peeps for not updating on it often. cause i've been writing it down on diary lately and im so lazy to update again on blog. =DD hehes. had a chalet organised and sponsored by clariss! =DD so nice of her! the chalet was a two days one night event. however not all FIRA attended. there's only clariss[the host], paul, huang jun, jyh chau, dom, raymond, and chaur cherng at first. we reached sentosa first at about 11 plus. =)) thomas, lian siang and meiqi met us later. all of us are so BURNT except for lian siang and meiqi. almost all of us de skins are peeling off now. hahas. and oh. we had BBQ at the chalet there too! but as the fire was raised so long, and all of us are so hungry already, clariss asked us to eat the main course first. which is beehoon, fried rice, curry, mashed potatoes with sauce, bread, pandan cake and more! hahas. i just ate some beehoon with curry and some mashed potatoes and im SUPER FULL! hahas. so when the BBQ was ready, im already full. hahas. so i ate only a sausage! =D

and we went to kbox on tues! =DD labour day mahs. seldom public holiday lehs so must enjoy. =DD went from 5 to 8! =DD sore throat still can sing lehs. not bad hors me. hahas. =D then we refilled the snacks ALOT of times. the snacks are getting more yummyy!! =D but still got the peanuts in it. hahas. this time we didnt eat any peanuts so they just cleared off the leftovers and replaced with another bowl of snack. =DD nice right?? and after kbox, we went to swensens for dinner. chaur cherng was sick so, miraculously, he didnt eat. and i shared fries and merri mint sundae with huang jun. =)) yummyy. but i still prefer Anderson's ice cream. =DD next time i want go cine again, but this time for k lunch. ohya. im going k with claudia on the 18th of May!! =DDD yoohoo!!

AND one BIG question. how come YIYANG KNOW MY BLOG?!