ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

STOP pls!!!!!!!!!

and i mean STOP!!! so stressed lahs!

i've been sleeping badly these days and rushing on projects. and now at ONE time, TWO bees are chatting with me in my msn, meaning TWO windows. im already so tired, i cant even think straight now! and u tell me all these?! im going crazy soon i tell u!

okay. bee is too bad a word to describe them. and i dont think i'll be telling borong about my change in blog webby. cause im talking about him here. but seriously. im REALLY tired. i've no more energy to think about all these.

i'll copy some of our conversation in here, just so u know the seriousness of borong's situation.
take note of borong's display nick.


((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of yt...........In my heart u were the only and my memory being with yt lives on says: i think icannot put yt x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahsa ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of yt...........In my heart u were the only and my memory being with yt lives on says: i noe another girl call yt 2 x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: okayys ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of yt...........In my heart u were the only and my memory being with yt lives on says: after she think i like her die liao x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: LOL x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: nvm lahhs x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahas x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: she'll feel.... x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: loved?? x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahas ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of u.............In my heart u were the only and my memory being with u lives on says: ......................no feeling for her x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hahas x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: hmmm?? x[[ TiNg² ]]x the super-bonded FIRA rocks my life! =DD justbemybudd, simply lovely. =) ,,! says: then u got feeling for me mehs? ((>>LBR<<)) When i close my eyes there's a image of u.............In my heart u were the only and my memory being with u lives on says:
ya ya

now let u see borong's personal nick.

I would give my life away if i can be with u cause I can't still the voice inside of me that is calling out your name

he's been like that since so long ago. and now then i know he's for real. i've always thought that he's joking and have always been playing along with him. borong, im really sorry to put this on blog, but i dont want to write it in my diary. and i have to get this out of my brain before i go crazy soon, REAL SOON.

and another one is DAN. one which i really did not expected. i've closed the window but i'll write about it briefly, depending on how much i remembered.

he asked if he can ask me a question. and he's been wanting to ask that question for very long. cause he asked me the last 2 times[if im not wrong] when im online. only he didnt asked in the end, and pushed it till now. he asked if he can take care of me. im totally blurred in the beginning. then i 'oh'. and got it. and to be honest, im not close with dan, AT ALL. i mean, we're friends lahs, just normal friends. and he popped THAT question?! so sudden?! and i dont even think that he know me very well lors. i keep asking him 'dont like that lahhhhs'. and i told him that i got alot of things on my mind. dont keep like that. if not im going crazy soon. and dan sweared that he'll wait. though i called him NOT TO. and i said it in this way, 'DONT WANT!!!' when he said that he'll wait. he sweared. dont know why but im going crazy! why they like that!!

i dont know why. i just feel so STRESSED UP.